Because you will never see me like this again. 🙂
I grew up with a camera in my face. I always hated it. Even when I was very young, skinny and absolutely adorable, I felt like BIG BIRD. In retrospect, I don’t see BIG BIRD but I sure did then. But I have realized that body image has always been a problem for me which is probably the reason I have been up and down the scale so many times. in life
As I have aged and gained weight, my aversion to cameras has only gotten worse. And the holidays for me, are a recipe for a full-blown panic attack .. Sad huh? It’s the truth though and it has to be said IF I am going to be REAL in this transformation process.
But alas I did survive another holiday, and the flurry of photographs that were shared and shared again. This being one of them. This photo ( above) was taken on Thanksgiving Day, 16 ( which also happened to be my eleventh wedding anniversary) I weighed every bit of 280 lbs.
Far cry from my beautiful wedding photos of eleven years earlier ( below ) where I weighed 100 pounds less. Now if this isn’t motivation, I don’t know what it is . 🙂